Gladiator

“At my signal, unleash hell.”
– Russell Crowe (Gladiator)

direct thy path.

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight.”
Proverbs 3:5-6

May I learn to have faith & be faithful.
the verse that pulls me through dark times.

Never ending..

It’s my senior year of college…  but I’m not going to be graduating for another two years.  Two years is possibly cutting it short.  College is going to be a never ending story for me.  I feel that even by the time I’m 30, I’ll still be in college.  I just hope to God that I’ll finish college as soon as I could.  It’s starting to become scary to me.  I don’t want to be stuck in college forever.  But really, all I can do is try my hardest and graduate.  I know I shouldn’t feel rushed because our timing is all different.  God gave us different timings.  All I can really do is trust in the Lord and do my part.  I should really stop freaking out about graduating and focus on working harder.  God, I hope you’ll provide me with a wealthy man who can help me pay back my loans! Just kidding!

Just a Kiss Goodnight~

I’ve been listening to Just a Kiss by Lady Antebellum forever now.

This song makes me emotional & want to cry but I love it. If you see the music video, it makes you even more sad!

dream on

I’ve been having crazy ass dreams lately..

One was about Coraline (the creepy movie) & I was basically her. & instead of the Other mother it was captain jack sparrow trying to kill visitors from our world & turn us button eyed. The next day I visited the world again & everything was normal. Some friends were in the other world & they were all nice & friendly. Then I realized they were button-eyed victims in disguise to hurt me. Then one of my friends decided to sacrifice himself (told everyone he wasn’t button-eyed) so that I can escape back to my world. I had to go through this underground hallway with windows on both sides but all you can see through these windows were dirt (because it was underground). The creepy hand from Coraline started following me from the outside. It was digging so it can see me through the windows. Then I managed to go back to my other world.. But before that I had to get on a space shuttle in order to get to my world (that was really random LOL).

Then last night I had a dream I was strolling with my newborn & then suddenly this gang started chasing after us to hurt us. This old man told us to come hide in his store & that he’ll have the store locked up so they don’t come in. He seemed a bit sketchy at first.  I didn’t trust him that much so I decided to take precautions and hide somewhere else. As soon as you know it, the mob broke into the store before I could hide. So I hide behind a corner wall & looked for things to defend myself. A chair? No.  Table? Too big & I’m holding onto a baby.  Glass plates & bowls? Yes. I smashed glass bowls on their heads to hurt them. Then my boyfriend/husband came in to the rescue.

 

what’s wrong with me =__=

Mental Encouragement.

Some things I tell myself when I fail, can’t decide, or lose motivation.

“Hustle hard. Hustle harder.”
When I wake up late & don’t go to class, I tend to freak out inside my mind. I tell myself that I’m going to fail that I’m going to get an F on that exam coming, etc.  But all you can do next time is.. hustle harder.

“Never let down an opportunity”
I was asked to be a small group leader the day before this conference called ‘MAASU (midwest asian american students union)’.  I’ve been a leader before, why be a follower when I know that I can be a potentially good leader? I took that chance in a heartbeart.

“Success starts from a beginning point.”
I recently started working as a waitress/server at a restaurant.  I thought that if I wanted to work at a very well paying restaurant for soem extra money, might as well take little steps to it.  So here I am, my first time as a server at a sushi restaurant. Wish me luck!

“A crying baby gets fed breast milk.”
Something my step-dad told me.  During the summer, I talked to him about internships and my career.  I didn’t apply to this one internship because I thought I would never get it.  All my dad told me is, no interview = no chance of internship.  If you request them for an interview.. there’s a higher chance than none.

“Don’t mind those who don’t care.”
I used to be very.. sensitive to what people thought about me.  I want to be liked by everyone.  I realized in the end that in this big big world, there will be people who wont like you just because.  There’s nothing we can do.  So move on & be with the people who care.  Love you guys

“I am sexy. I am beautiful.”
I have my moments of not being confident with my looks.  But this semester, I’ve been realizing that I am my own self and that I am beautiful for being who I am.  I have my flaws and my wrong-doings.. but so has everyone else.  I am beautiful & not every guy or girl will think that about me. It’s okay, guys like confident women.. hahaha jk!

“Like Beyonce, be an independant woman!”
I am an independent woman! I don’t need guys to tell me I’m beautiful. Heck, I haven’t heard that I’m beautiful from my boyfriend in.. awhile.  But I know that he thinks I am.

 

Yeah, these little mental quotes give me motivation to get through school.

Hello World!

After a two year hiatus, maybe I’ll start posting once in awhile. I was going to make tumblr my posting spot BUT I have gotten a little too carried away with reblogging funny pictures that I barely write there.  It’s become a popularity contest of who can get the most followers & who is considered “tumblr-famous”. I don’t like the competition so maybe.. just maybe, I’ll resort back to here.. Something a little low-key.